Back in Manila~

Yattaaa~ Tadaima~!!

Sheesh. It's been a month but it felt like a year since I've been here.

I'm not gonna lie, I missed it here.

The place changed so much.

Demo shoganaina, we took almost half of the stuff in here to the other house so I guess that's why.

It looks so much more.. breathable this way.

I wish it could've been like this from the very start so we never have to suffer this way.

But it's too late and there's no turning back now.

As much as I want to, there's no good that will come from staying here forever, this is rest.

It almost feels like a dream. Or the other house feels like it's not real.

I'm not quite sure which is real either.

But I'm sure I like it where I am now at the moment.

It's like the feeling I get when I stayed here and visit the other house before.

The situation got switched. Maybe because the people here missed me lol

Although the air here is definitely alot more polluted than in Laguna, I can breathe freely for a bit now here.

It's been 3 days since I came here~

In fact, I'm only here to get my school requirements but I didn't really think I'd take this long.

It feels like my last vacation before school starts again.

I still feel bad I haven't gone swimming before summer ended T^T

Anyway, I think this is a great opportunity to learn something lol

I learned that no matter how much bad times you have, home is still home You'll miss it when you're gone.

Ok I got no more to rant about, now here's some recent selcas I posted on some of my SNS ^^

My distortedness is creepy lol

Greeted by a gift from NK ^^ Looks good right ^^

Gasai Yuno pose lmao

This is today with my 3ds XL <3

lol that's not me but.. dayummm that hair and lips and v-line~ T^T you win alreadyyy!

Thank you for reading up to here, even if it's not much to attend to.

I appreciate it alot ^o^

Love,

Dearestdenziiee

What's going on

I've been on the computer for like 5 hours already.

I was thinking if I should blog or not since nothing that good is happening anyways.

It's been a couple of months right?

Sorry to have been so inactive.

But here goes a post!

I have to warn you though, I'm not using my computer.

Meaning, no pictures.

So anyway,

It's been almost a month since I've moved from the City of  Pasig Manila to the Province of Santa Rosa Laguna.

As some of you know, Pasig has been very stressful for me for the past years

And the people at my house weren't very easy to cope with.

I finally mustered up a great amount of luck and got to move here trying to find a little bit of rest and peace and happiness.

But, they say luck runs out and changes.

I'm starting to realize what running away from the place I used to call home and hell to another home meant.

It meant leaving your friends, the things you got used to, the bed that gave you a bit of love..

It meant leaving.. home. And all the things that kept you alright.

All the things that kept you sane from all the bullshit around you. Your shield.

But most of all, it meant getting transferred to full time hell.

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I came here tying to take a break so I can reach my dreams in peace.

To be who I want without people hurting you.

But I learned you can never take that away in this life.

I'm sorry for being a pessimist unlike the way I always was.

But these days I have been taking a break from blogging, I changed alot.

The other end of the pole.

And for every one else, I think that change isn't very pleasing. 

But for myself it could be immensely beneficial.

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Moving on and on a brighter side, this year I'm finally taking up college.

As you I've stated before, I stopped for a year.

I'm not saying where I study but I'm going to take up Multimedia Arts for 2 years.

2 years, and hopefully, I'm out of here. Runaway Part II.

I hope starting school again would take my thoughts away from all of this.

I'm planning to do hella good in college.

Bc if I can't be good at something I like to learn or do.. what's the use?

You might say, it's not my first choice but I'll try really hard anyway.

I'm growing selfish, but yes it's for me and my own future.

Whether who I am with along the way helping me through this, they will benefit.

I know I'm a special case and I'm really hard to understand

And most of the time I require a specific thing to please and tame.

But I never forget any tiny bit of kindness shown to me. This will never change.

For I've only been shown very little in all my life.

All those brought me down, I'll bury them deep.

Too early to say this but, let me take this out of my system for once lol

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It's 4:40 am.

It's the children's first day of classes this year and at 5 am I suppose alarm clocks will start to ring.

They'll get up and me still up here using their computer and power supply is pretty embarrassing.

So I'll drop off now.

Thank you for reading up to here as always.

Love,

Dearestdenziiee

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Live thought feed:

* Hmm.. I need more lemon water.

* My hair is taking too long to grow and so untameable

* How do I sleep without reading my book

* People that left me here are annoying

* How do I sleep without taking a bath

* I hope morning light comes..

* I'm gonna watch Malice Mizer YT Vids 

* I hope I blog sooner after this

* #HAPPY8THANNIVERSARYELF