Dear You

Hello. 

You may or may not ever get to read this. But nonetheless I'd write it anyway.

This is for you, who made my days shine like the big blue sky.

You were as sure as day and as peaceful as night.

This is for you, who always found a way to make my heart smile.

Even in the darkest of dawns and the loneliest hours.

To you, who in my great days, made everything the best.

You bring out my best.

You came into my life, one day when I was sad.

He wasn't worth tears. They all weren't my fears.

But you were. And I cried every night.

But not the day. The days you made me glad.

Then you left me, one day, you made me sad.

This is not about them. This is us.

I was the one who lacked trust?

I want you to understand, I loved you with everything I had.

Each time you made me feel bad,

You took away pieces I worked to had.

Dear you.

One day you were all I ever had.

You didn't know. Because I'll never let you know.

I worked hard not to make you center.

How foolish of me. You always were.

I hate men.

Because I saw how they're ego driven.

They thought being truly loved by women would make them superior even.

I'm telling you.

There's much more to love than the ideals.

Learn to believe in the superficial.

Loving someone with all I am is the only way I know how to love. 

If I was loved like this, I would be blessed.

Men will think the woman is whipped.

Such bullshit you have.

Dedication is being whipped.

Adoration is being obssessed.

Passion is being dramatic. 

Your mind is feeble. 

One day maybe you'd find someone, just like he did.

Maybe it wouldn't be me, because for him I wasn't.

But you'll see her. You'll know.

The way someone would laugh would intoxicate.

The way their eyes shine in the dark would make you go crazy before closing yours.

When that happens, I pray, oh I dearly pray she doesn't break your heart. 

Because it ruins people. It ruins your soul.

I hope you wouldn't ever know.

Sometimes I wonder if I pushed you away too far.

But sometimes I wonder if you just never even planned to stay near. 

And also please know that if you really did, you would've tried.

Like I did every night.

I'm entering a chapter where my past wouldn't matter.

I'm leaving you there. Don't hate me.

I have to move forward.

Although I always wished I would with you. 

But I was told some people cannot go where I'm being taken next.

Because they don't want to probably.

But nonetheless, thank you.

I appreciate everything you did for me and me alone.

But yeah, life does go on.

I'm changing from now on. 

I'm not gonna be the same person. 

I hope you don't look for her. Please don't look for her. She's safe now.

Be happy. Live. 

Denzel x

2015 WISHLIST

Hallu durrrrrrrrr

I'm hypomanic again, shhh, don't tell my doctor I don't need her anyway i feel incredible LOL

But yeah Hi. Again. It's me. I was wondering if atter all these years you'd like to meet? Lololol i'm jking it's from Adele's Hello, geddit? No, okay, pshaw! Fine. Buzzkill.

It is true I have gotten my most wonderfull gift this christmas which was a new kitty cat (check tag Lülu Anais) but yesh, I'm back this year with another wishlist. 

This will also work for my bday wishlist for March 06 :3 haha

I'll just. List them this year bc i'm just on ipod. 

IDC IF THEYRE NEW OR NOT OPENED OR NOT :) HAHAHA 

1. DJ SONA AND SNOW DAY SYNDRA SKIN

Uhm well yeah? I'm a badass Syndra player hands down. But sona, i just want it badly. Please.

2. Rune Factory 4 and Harvest Moon: A Tale of Two Towns

Idk if i've posted it last year bu i still want it. Missed Nintendo eshop sale. Bought a cat instead. Worth. But still want em. Please?

3. Romaric Walker

looooooooooooooool shhhhhh don't tell i'm gonna ruin Christmas for you and your angkan.

4. MASHIMARO BED!

Fuck. You know those totoro huge ass beds i want a mashimaro one please.

5. Whiskas Cat Food. And Kitty Litter.

Economical. Fuck yeah.

6. Animal Crossing: Happy Home Designer

:( :( :( please? :3

7. Horror / Suspense Fiction books or books in general

I haven't read for a while. :( Please anything neil gaiman / michael faudet / lang leav will work 

8. ART SUPPLIES

give me paint, i'll take it. Staedtler / Fabed-Castell pencils are much appreciated hahhaha 

Hmm i'm running out of wishes. God gave me fucktons this year. So blessed. Thank You Lord <3

9. Anything white. 

Don't think green. I said white, bitch. Even paper is fine. Lol

10. 10 million pesos

Thx

Last year of being 18 woohooooo i love hate this year but made it

Sticker by my baby cousins. I'll burn them.

New kitty <3 Lülu Anais the Smoke Blue Doll Face Persian Cat

Okay breh, I agree she looks grumpy.

But trust me she's like the nicest kitty ever.

I really wanted a new cat for Christmas since my poor baby Kohl is gone and prayed God that I find a new cat to love.

In a matter of DAYS, bruh, DAYYSSSS (though it kinda felt like years ofc bc it's a new kitty!) He gave me my wish.

Ang lakas ko kay God grabe diba.

I don't think I ever told you about Koi though :( 

Basically I got him from the streets February 2015, he was a small baby cat about 2-3months old and he had a broken tail which was still bleeding.

He appeared from my doorstep out of nowhere and Me, I really wanted a black cat, I gave him spaghetti. He ate it. And was nice about letting me touch him.

So I asked my cousin to grab him to my house and I fed him eggs and made him a box (which he outgrew a few weeks and started sleeping in my bed)

He was a very playful kitten. Left me with scratches and love and tears and depression when he was thrown out by my annoying af uncle.

Now back to my new cat.

I was really sad about Koi and felt very very lonely and alone. 

So i decided and hoped for a gray/blue cat. I looked for russian blues but theyre too expensive bc they're rare af.

I came across persian cats bc they were the ones mostly sold.

I searched thoroughly online to find the prettiest yet cheapest I could. I mostly wanted a gray or white or black one. Possibly pure and nice.

I got all of it in one. Lol and very cheap. She was being sold for 3,500php near me with her partner a a pure doll face persian calico male. Which is still available. 

But I haggled out and got her for 2,500 also because the Lady named Jane Alyssa is very nice :)

I can't lie. She looked very neglected and the owner stated she can't take care of them anymore.

Her name was originally Lulu and that surprised me bc league of legends, duh. 

I really wanted to name her Anais. Bc I wanted her name to mean grace. As in God's Grace. 

But the babycat responds to being called Lulu so I named her Lülu Anais :)

She's a bit shy. But very affecionate. 

My grabdma hates pets. But when Lülu meowed at her with her non existent meow sound which is like a lip sync, she found her cute and was very protective of her.

The owner also said she's pregnant. I was half scared and half excited. BUT I don't think she is to be honest. 

She said she's supposed to be pregnant since August. But that's just bullshit. Cats are only prego for less than 2 months at most.

I gave her kitten food just incase she is but she's not taking it well with blood on her loose stools.

So I might just go back to giving her adult dry, canned and raw food. 

But yeah she's a really cool lap cat and likes sleeping on the floor. Oh and she's approx 1 years old btw. She's a big girl.

Here's some pictures from today. (Her eyes yellow orange eyes are just reflecting light)

Okay. Next post: END OF THE YEAR WISHLIST!!!! <3

Thank you for reading! Hope you didnt get bored much.

The Irony in Social Networking Sites

"What's on your mind?"

"What's happening?"

"What's going on?"

Few of the things we see before we type or post anything on social networking sites like Twitter and Facebook.

The purpose of why we post stuff on the internet varies from person to person, but why, in some cases do we get... what's the right word?

Discriminated? Probably. Discriminated about posting what's actually happening and what's literally on our minds?

For example, we post feelings on facebook like this..

Allie Hamilton: feeling empty 😶

And one or two people would instantly react, maybe not actually post it or tell you but in their minds they would be like..

Oh my god, why is this person such a drama queen.

What's happening to this person couldn't really be that bad.

Why do you have to post stuff like that?

That's not interesting, keep your problem to yourself.

Attention seeker.

Doing it all for the likes.

This is why I don't post stuff like that, see, it looks stupid.

Stuff like this.

Honestly, tell me you haven't thought ANY of those lines ever before?

You probably have, or not, if you say so.

And for me, I think it's NOT RIGHT.

By "not right" I mean that we shouldn't be thinking bad stuff about other people posting the stuff that's literally on their mind and happening.

Why do we ridicule others so much and not think.... Geez, it's ridiculous that I'm ridiculing other people for being ridiculous on facebook but I'm clearly missing the point that THIS IS WHAT IS FACEBOOK FOR, FOR SAYING WHAT'S ON SOMEONE'S MIND.

Damn it. Let us not be judgemental and critical.

Seriously, just unfriend or unfollow.

No matter how ignorant a post gets as long as it's not hurting, damaging, harassing, involving anyone and anything that shouldn't be done so, we shouldn't really give a shit about their shit. 

Let them do their shit, yeah? Lol

Because it's what it is for. The sole purpose of it's existence.

Facebook and Twitter asked them that before they posted, get it over with.

If you wanted to see funny posts, go to 9gag. Not advertising.

I dunno I'm just rambling. I just.. can't sleep lol

Here let's take a chill pill. Lolol

IG: @DearestDenziiee

Lows

I hate talking about this. I really do.

But something in me tells me I should.

In the past post somewhere I told you I don't know whether I have bipolar disorder.

Because yeah, the past two months have been crazy for me to the point i had to go back to hell and see if it's any better here.

Aaaaand i think I have transitioned from my very high highs to my really low lows again.

Part of me accepted long ago that this happens and will happen quite alot.

But when you get mania you feel like everything's gonna be okay. You're amazing, you can handle everything.

And that led me to go here, take on AALLLL these adult tasks... and two months from then........

I have not achieved anything.

Yeap. It. All. Went. Spiraling. Down. Once. Fucking. Again.

Being hopeful when you're on the lowest side of the pole isn't gonna happen.

I keep wondering where the old I can do anything me went.

And I don't know if I'm just trying to justify myself with this bipolar thing or I'n just a failure.

I seriously will not be okay if this goes on. 

History has repeated itself. It's that long loooong year I don't have anything happening all over again.

I might delete this but i'll let it stay here

Thankful~

I'm just happy to get to do what I want.

Like, school consists of drawing, painting, chatting , laughing and eating out.

Home consists of  more drawing, sleeping, playing, worshiping, eating, and anime.

My social circle consists of people I can talk to with whatever I want and I get to look however I want when I'm with them.

Be it talking about "yandere" or just making really ugly faces I only used to show to my mom.

It feels good. Having people around who accept you for who you are.

The best part is that everyday feels like a dream, a really blissful one.

I know for sure that not everyone can go and do stuff what they want leisurely.

And not everyone gets to do what they want for work/school or even at home. Trust me I know.

That's why I want to take this moment, thank God for everything He blessed me with.

For answering my prayers and for giving me things I never even knew I'd need.

And for every little thing He is working on my life right now.

He's making miracles for me everyday.

Did you know that for almost a year now, I wake up the exact same time I want/need to without an alarm clock or anyone to wake me up?

Just praying before I shut my eyes and leaving it all up to Him.

Then when I wake up, I have no idea what decade it is and suddenly, I'd just have enough time o fix myself and my stuff to go to school.

This excludes sometimes when I stay up to like 5am and have to wake up at 6am though. That would be my fault. Haha.

But right now, isn't this what I prayed for last year when I was all depressed, lonely and muddy?

"I want a day when I get to do whatever I want. I want to play all day and blog all night."

"I want a reallllyyyyyyy cute 3DS! And I want someone to play it with~"

"I want cozy nights watching anime."

"I want my own room so I can have my own comfort zone"

Now what?

I study something I love to do

I just played League of Legends and now I'm blogging at 5am

I do have it right now in front of me and I just received a Manaphy from Nikki and late I'm getting my Pokemon: Alpha Sapphire.

I'm currently watching Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun tucked inside my blanket against the chilly weather

I do have my own pink pretty room now too

Simple stuff. BUT- I HAVE THEM ALL. All my prayers were answered.

And I'm really thankful.

How great is He? :) <3

Anyway, that's it for today.

RANDSOM DUCKFACE FEEL CHIO SELFIE

signed,

Dearestdenziiee

2014 WISHLIST

Hello there blog~ I missed you!

Sorry- (for the nth time)

I haven't been posting here (here it comes) because I'm too busy.. and lazy. Ok.

Oh, I'm posting my ugly improvement lacking f-artworks on DeviantArt anyways, please check them!

Here's the link to that: http://denziiee.deviantart.com

So yeah, I just wanted to update for those who love me and keep checking up on my blog lol.

I wanted to share some things we both (most specially me) might find a little convenient.

I wanted to share my wishlist because Christmas is coming up and it's gonna be my 18th birthday sooner than I think which I hate but if you're gonna give me one of these, then it might turn out not be so bad after all (breathes in)

I mean, come on, let's be real, don't you just hate the feeling of receiving something you know you'll just give away or never use?

It's not that you're ungrateful or something, I mean, you hate it because you know it's gonna be wasted.

Like, they'd give you a luxurious branded shoe in a style you totally hate and you know you just can't wear.

When all you wanted was a freaking chocolate bar. Just one. COME ON.

How awful right? Btw, it's a true story soooooo...........

Here's what I want for my 18th birthday or Christmas or any-when in the near far future!

FICTION BOOKS

Preferably hard bound books with pretty covers and catchy stories.

I like scary, mind boggling horror ones yes please and romance works fine.

Authors I like best in this genre are V.C. Andrews, Susan Madison, Kaye Hooper and Neil Gaiman!

I don't need brand new. I need new stories for muh brain~

Come on, you can get them in book sales for 40-80php. 100php buy 1 take 1.

See? It doesn't take much to make me so damn happy. lol

Although, the more, the happier I will be and the more loved you will be lol

ANYTHING PINK/MAGENTA/TEAL

Yes, anything. :3 I.e. socks, mechanical pencil, pillow case, bedsheet, bag, slippers, shirt, underwear lol, or even pink candies.

Something I can eat, or put in my magenta filled room would be very nice :3

Basically if you want to get me something, please make it pink/magenta.

Except if it's a Razer Kraken or anything Razer. NO. Razer is supposed to be GREEN.

GREEN TEA

Anything that says green tea, even if it's edible or not I will accept it whole-heartedly lol

Powdered green tea (matcha) will be the best choice lol

ART MATERIALS

Mechanical Pencils, Black Markers/Sharpie, Pencils, Sketch pads, Sharpeners, Crayons, Shading stamps, Color Pencils (YESPLEASE), Water Color Pencils, Oil Pastel, Acrylic Paint, Charcoal Pencils, Paint brushes... you choose.

My personal favorite stuff are from Faber Castell and Pentel.

ANYTHING "RAZER"

Yes. Anything. I will most definitely reserve you a special place in my heart lol.

SUPER JUNIOR MERCH/ALBUMS

MY BIAS IS YESUNG, PLEASE GET ME ANYTHING WITH YESUNG IN IT

SUSHI

ANYTHING! JUST. GET. ME. SUSHI. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Although I like Ebi (shrimp) sushi, Akami (tuna) sushi and Ootoro (fatty tuna) the best!

You will never go wrong with this one I swear!!!!!!!

3DS GAME CARDS

This one is a bit pricy but, omg pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee

Anything will do.

Although I would really love Super Smash Bros and Ace Attorney please and thank you~

Once again, I don't need brand new, I want new stuff for muh brain~ lels

3DS XL ACCESSORIES

A case, a stylus a sticker or what not for my pink 3ds baby.

LEAGUE OF LEGENDS SKIN / GARENA SHELLS

Oh, oh, oh! A mystery gift will be really nice! IGN: SHIONORI

Or if you want, you can give me shells instead, it's basically loaded in a prepaid card and you can buy it in selected 7eleven stores. <3

Razer Blade Laptop

Oh yeah. This. I can wait years for this. I will wait very patiently until someone gives me this.

LORD PLEASE I WANT NEED LOVE THIS LOL

Oh, last but not the least...

DRAWINGS/PAINTINGS/ART/LETTERS/POEMS/SONGS

Whether made by you or anyone, digital or traditional, I would totally appreciate it specially on my birthday. :')))))) <3

You know what? Anything heartfelt would be so freaking nice. Like a bottle with a secret letter in it? I would totally love that.

This is just a reference of the things I would really like getting. :3
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So there's that, I'll leave it here because the people who would be on my 18 gifts for my 18th birthday would definitely need this.

Specially my family members lel ehem, eonnideul ehem, okaasama loljk

Okay thank you for reading up to here.

Oh yeah, this doesn't apply only on Christmas and my birthdays but any day ok? lol

Hahhahahahahaha so much for that.

This is not compulsory, just suggestions lmaoooo

thoughts feed:

OMG MY HEAD IS SO FULL OF THOUGHTS I MANAGED TO MAKE A FULL POST WITH NOS TOPPING WHATSOEVER AM I MANIC AGAIN YES I T PROBABLY AM
OMG POKEMON OR/AS IS COMING OUT SOON I JUST PREORDERED ALPHA SAPPHIE WITH POCHAN AND UPUPU AND DOODERS THEY GOT OMEGA RUBY I WANT MY COPY ALRDY I MISS LATIAS
SO LUCK I GOT A FREE DEMO FROM NINTENDO
SO LUCKY I GOT AN ARCEUS FOR FREE
SO LUCKY UPUPU WILL GIVE ME DIANCIE LATER HUHU
HI MEGA DIANCIE SEE YOU SOON MWA

Signed,

DearestDenziiee with love and kissy kissies ♥

Update. League of Legends with Janna Windforce~

Ok so here's a quick update lol.

Sorry I'm not doing this as often as I want to

But really, I barely even have time to wash my own hair these past few months. T^T

Yes, it's THAT busy but I'm greatful and happier :) <3

SO, anyway.

I got this new game addiction haha. (Again) Which may be turning a bit on the bad side.

I obsess over my gaming so much, I know that. Special online games. Asian much.

But yeah, this one I think is going a bit destructive like the others or much worse.

I didn't really wanna install this bc it demands high memory use.

But everyone kept talking about it and I got curious enough to follow haha.

Yesh, please just add me in game: SHIONORI (how i regret picking that name lol)

And on Garena, it's Denziiee.

BTW, the in game DENZIIEE  is NOT me. NOT ME OKKKKKK bummer right lol

I have heard of Janna for years now and then I kinda wanted to play her and she and me worked out well killing bots together even though she's just supposed to be support. lol

I no care. Part of my Pocket Legends gaming tells me that MAGE = NUKE lol nuke nuke nuke everyone and heal only yourself haha jk

So anyway, Janna Windforce, my best champion <3

Rylai misses me though but she still lemme use her scepter, tho (if ya know whut i mean lol lol)

How kewl is she :3 Meh nukeyyyyy :3

Anyway, so, you guys know I've been watching TK (Tokyo Ghoul) right?

ANNOYING IT'S ENDING SOON NO MORE THURSDAY NIGHT TK MARATHON ;(

Oh yeah, on destructiveness I meant, rather playing this than attending a nonsense class and i know that's not good and buying garena shells with my lunch money so I can buy.. THISSSSSSSSS

500 RP means real 500 pesos. Hmmm. That my lunch money for 3 and 1/4 days hahahhaha

But it's so KULIT hahahahahhahaha I want itttttttttttt...:<

Anyway Comia Senpai said she'd mystery gift me and I hope this one pops up! I'd keep on trying until I get chaaaaaaaaaaaaa <3

So that's it for now, I only blogged because I was supposed to be LVLing up my LoL account and spending time with mah Janna but... this shit ->  League of Legends Forum: Globe Connectivity Issue 9/8/14

Huhuhu me and my senpais getting disconnected. i now become the DISCON QUEEN lol

So yeah, thank you for reading up to here, if you put up with this, make sure we become friends because not everyone puts up with my shit like this lol

Signed,

DearestDenziiee with Janna ♥

Today @ UNI

Lol. So here's what..

I am late (as damn too) and I saw one of my classmates going the other direction from school.

I thought he was being his kind self helping out an old woman  for directions despite the fact he was late.

He was absent yesterday so I thought it will be bad for him. So I ran to him to warn him.

It turns out, he was going to transfer out.

I was kinda sad because even though he's annoying making me repeat what "saranghae" meant, he made the class al little bit more fun.

So then I am even more late.

Now on the 2nd bldg, I went to my room and BAMMMMMMM- nobody is there T^T

Now I am stuck with an hour nowhere to go but on the PC bang lololol.

I srsly don't know where my classmates are. Or if my time is set right i do not freaking know~

Partly my fault, partly not. But mostly mine.

Tomorrow I'l get up extra early I promise. And move extra fast bc tomorrow is all art subjects.

Being an art student is an adventure lol

Back in Manila~

Yattaaa~ Tadaima~!!

Sheesh. It's been a month but it felt like a year since I've been here.

I'm not gonna lie, I missed it here.

The place changed so much.

Demo shoganaina, we took almost half of the stuff in here to the other house so I guess that's why.

It looks so much more.. breathable this way.

I wish it could've been like this from the very start so we never have to suffer this way.

But it's too late and there's no turning back now.

As much as I want to, there's no good that will come from staying here forever, this is rest.

It almost feels like a dream. Or the other house feels like it's not real.

I'm not quite sure which is real either.

But I'm sure I like it where I am now at the moment.

It's like the feeling I get when I stayed here and visit the other house before.

The situation got switched. Maybe because the people here missed me lol

Although the air here is definitely alot more polluted than in Laguna, I can breathe freely for a bit now here.

It's been 3 days since I came here~

In fact, I'm only here to get my school requirements but I didn't really think I'd take this long.

It feels like my last vacation before school starts again.

I still feel bad I haven't gone swimming before summer ended T^T

Anyway, I think this is a great opportunity to learn something lol

I learned that no matter how much bad times you have, home is still home You'll miss it when you're gone.

Ok I got no more to rant about, now here's some recent selcas I posted on some of my SNS ^^

My distortedness is creepy lol

Greeted by a gift from NK ^^ Looks good right ^^

Gasai Yuno pose lmao

This is today with my 3ds XL <3

lol that's not me but.. dayummm that hair and lips and v-line~ T^T you win alreadyyy!

Thank you for reading up to here, even if it's not much to attend to.

I appreciate it alot ^o^

Love,

Dearestdenziiee

What's going on

I've been on the computer for like 5 hours already.

I was thinking if I should blog or not since nothing that good is happening anyways.

It's been a couple of months right?

Sorry to have been so inactive.

But here goes a post!

I have to warn you though, I'm not using my computer.

Meaning, no pictures.

So anyway,

It's been almost a month since I've moved from the City of  Pasig Manila to the Province of Santa Rosa Laguna.

As some of you know, Pasig has been very stressful for me for the past years

And the people at my house weren't very easy to cope with.

I finally mustered up a great amount of luck and got to move here trying to find a little bit of rest and peace and happiness.

But, they say luck runs out and changes.

I'm starting to realize what running away from the place I used to call home and hell to another home meant.

It meant leaving your friends, the things you got used to, the bed that gave you a bit of love..

It meant leaving.. home. And all the things that kept you alright.

All the things that kept you sane from all the bullshit around you. Your shield.

But most of all, it meant getting transferred to full time hell.

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I came here tying to take a break so I can reach my dreams in peace.

To be who I want without people hurting you.

But I learned you can never take that away in this life.

I'm sorry for being a pessimist unlike the way I always was.

But these days I have been taking a break from blogging, I changed alot.

The other end of the pole.

And for every one else, I think that change isn't very pleasing. 

But for myself it could be immensely beneficial.

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Moving on and on a brighter side, this year I'm finally taking up college.

As you I've stated before, I stopped for a year.

I'm not saying where I study but I'm going to take up Multimedia Arts for 2 years.

2 years, and hopefully, I'm out of here. Runaway Part II.

I hope starting school again would take my thoughts away from all of this.

I'm planning to do hella good in college.

Bc if I can't be good at something I like to learn or do.. what's the use?

You might say, it's not my first choice but I'll try really hard anyway.

I'm growing selfish, but yes it's for me and my own future.

Whether who I am with along the way helping me through this, they will benefit.

I know I'm a special case and I'm really hard to understand

And most of the time I require a specific thing to please and tame.

But I never forget any tiny bit of kindness shown to me. This will never change.

For I've only been shown very little in all my life.

All those brought me down, I'll bury them deep.

Too early to say this but, let me take this out of my system for once lol

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It's 4:40 am.

It's the children's first day of classes this year and at 5 am I suppose alarm clocks will start to ring.

They'll get up and me still up here using their computer and power supply is pretty embarrassing.

So I'll drop off now.

Thank you for reading up to here as always.

Love,

Dearestdenziiee

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Live thought feed:

* Hmm.. I need more lemon water.

* My hair is taking too long to grow and so untameable

* How do I sleep without reading my book

* People that left me here are annoying

* How do I sleep without taking a bath

* I hope morning light comes..

* I'm gonna watch Malice Mizer YT Vids 

* I hope I blog sooner after this

* #HAPPY8THANNIVERSARYELF

MY PINK 3DS XL ♥

Hiyaaaaa~

Life has been sooo busy for me sorry for only blogging so so so little. *sad face*

If any spelling mistakes occur, that's because my keyboard is laggy and my nails are too long now to type anyway.

So, as I mentioned in my posts before here is the baby I have been waiting for for sooooo many weeks/months and I finally got my hands on it.

In fact, the reason I am inactive, is because I have never been parted with this console that I am losing my life, or so I believe.

I have bought the pink one, and personally I think it's a bit too pale for my liking.

I like pastel and all, but this, a bit low on saturation (that's what she said)

I still love it either way. Anyway, this charger is from my japanese version DSi.

They work well. So now, I have another one to add on my same chargers yays!

Srsly I have like four of these chargers. It's the fifth one. We love DS consoles, ok?

Back to the 3ds xl, yes.

This one is the us version of the 3ds xl bc rumor has it, the games are now region locked as well.

Which sucked bc I like it when my card games are from all over the world.

Bc that way I can ask relatives and friends from all over he world and nation to get me game cards for my birthday/christmas etc

Or play games with people who have different console versions.

But it wasn't gonna happen now with this console. Boohoo.

It makes me feel like it sucks to have friends all over the world sometimes.

Makes me wanna chunk 'em all up in one continent like "ok errybody, my town's open come on in"

Lol sorry it's 3 am. I feel manic again.

So here's what it looks like when you open it.

Wait, Imma tell you something off topic-ish again..

If you don't wanna read it, it's fine, just remember this is my life blog ok. lol

So, the day I bought this at the game store, I was greeted by the woman who didn't give a damn at me when I first inquired about an 3ds xl a few weeks ago.

When I was asking about their 3ds consoles before, a few week back, she was like, there's the console outside in the box, don't care, you're not buying anyway and like did not assist me at all.

I hated her so much.

Even if I do not look as hungry for gaming like the geek guys in the game store gawking at all the stuff in there, I have an experience up to reaching level cap in Diablo3 you know!

Don't belittle me lol lol lol

Anyway, so when I got enough money and bought this finally..

Guess what she did?! That girl ripped my box open and put in my 3ds information for me.

Like wtf, is that yours?! YOU PAY FOR IT?

She literally asked my name, bday etc to type it in for me like wth, I was giggling like..

'Heh heh, what are you doing? heh, that's not yours.'

Yes, like I wanted to strangle her with the pitch of my voice and glare of my eyes.

Then when she got bored of it, she handed it to me, but I did not accept, my sisters used it.

I reluctantly paid for it bc it has been dirtied by an ugly soul.

Anyway when I first held it, I noticed how heavy it was.

When I first opened it it felt like.. wow this is big and heavy and pretty awesome (that's what she said)

When we got to Mcdonalds, I turned 3D on, which is supposedly the main factor of this console..

And guess what happened? I almost threw up.

I got dizzy lol. But it turns out I was looking in the wrong angle.

Anyway...

My eyes are getting tired from writing. Sheesh.

Here's the console when you open it and yes, as you know I got my Animal Crossing New Leaf, the reason I bought this.

Alongside with the reason that they give you free Pokemon download codes when you register a qualified game and a console in March.

I was so lucky ACNL was one of the qualified games. So yeah, I got Pokemon Y free.

This is in brightest setting which blurred the background out, you see. So bright.

It's got this circle pad which works well regulating the speed/force you wanna apply on stuff in game.

It's a bit sharper than I thought it would be. And that is awesome.

I didn't expect much from this really bc I didn't want disappointment lol.

My Town is named Denzers. 

Here is my town map on the bottom screen. :3 I took these photos a few weeks ago so they're not really updated.

Here's how my house looks like at the moment..

MY PASTEL MERMAID WONDERLAND IS NOW UNDER CONSTRUCTION AND IS TAKING TOO LONG I'M GETTING SICK OF IT..

Gotta earn 'em tours.

Oh, before I forget!

My Town Dream Address is 5800-3886-6749

Comment below or tweet me @Denziiee for Friend Codes! ♥

Miiverse username is well.. Denziiee :)

So how big is this console? Not very big outside, but really heavier than DS consoles.

My hands use to get tired and heavy from DS consoles, imagine how slim the 3ds xl makes my hands? lol

Here's my 3ds xl with my DSi with cases on.. Not very much difference right?

Without cases on. Oooh they look so damn fragile T^T

Like they could scratch and turn off color in a snap.

I tried aligning them as much as I could without getting them scratched. lol

I like how they both light up red flashies when the outer cameras are on.

But the 3d XL lights led up when I receive notifications.

Cooooooool right? Just like my blackberry phone. :3

Inside is where you see all the difference.

The screen and difference, is like, so huge, the DSi feels almost like a cheap toy.

But it's not. We bought the DSi's when they first came out in Japan and I bought the 3ds xl like, 2 years after release in Philippine Peso, so basically the price s almost the same.

The problem is that, white gets dirty easily.

I mean, a spec of dust is sooo noticable in these consoles that once you dirty it it feels ugly already.

I clean them every day. Still they fade. 

Even my 3ds xl's hori case which is soo damn expensive than i thought it would be, is freaking fading and yellowish after a few days.

Can't blame them, activity log says i have played ACNL for 128 hours and 50 minutes at the moment.

Just ACNL, how much more my other games, I even play my DS game cards on my XL lol (Anyway, yes they work and they are all japanese game cards)

There goeth my life..... lol

But overall, I love this console and I even kiss it every now and then bc it is so beautiful lol.

If you went here to check if it's good, yes, it is but if you're a clean freak like me, i might consider to buy the black ones.

I just can't help it bc I love white and pink so... It's worth all the occasional wiping sessions.

Anyway, I think I've said too much stuff and I don't want to catch daylight now.

I'm spending today with LSG Girls and I don't want to look like a zombie.

So here's a pic of me enjoying my console the first time I took it home.. LMAOOOO

Look so ugly lol. My fat is everywhere.

So yeah, I gotta go to bed now.

If you enjoyed this post, we should totally be friends bc as far as I know, nobody puts up with my shit like this. lol lol

So bye nowwww...

Signed,

PASTEL MERMAID DREAM WONDERLAND~ ♥

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! ♥

Omg omg~ I've finally finished my blog banner and background and color scheme!

It took hours and hours to draw them on MS paint!

Srsly, it took me two days to do it and to a few more added touches.

What inspired me to do this theme was Animal Crossing: New Leaf's Mermaid Series house.

I really can't wait for my 3ds XL to play my Animal Crossing: New Leaf already.

You see, I have bought the game already ahead because I was supposed to have it on my birthday.

So shiny in my eyes~ I can't wait to collect mermaid series stuff!

I bought this for myself as a birthday gift / compensation lol

I came across the mermaid series while watching animal crossing game-plays on Youtube and fell inlove with it.

photo credits to owner

It looks like this outside when you have an average house. It looked sooo adorable too me with the stars and the sea shells and color scheme.

It seemed childish to other people but I really like it, so screw them lol.

photo credits to owner

All the furniture are really cute too.

It looked like a room that Little Mermaid Ariel's sister Alana would be living in. 

photo credits to owner

Until I saw something like this! Is this Alana's castle or what lol

That's when the idea of creating a pastel mermaid themed Town popped up.

I was initially going to name my Mayor/Character "Lune" and name my town "Lunatics"

So when Rover tells me, "Ah, you're going to the Town of Lunatics?" lol lol that'd be cool

But now I think i want to name my character Alana and my town Atlantica lol.

Which is impossible because I think the title character limit is like eight?

So I'm one letter short. make it Atlantic? Or "アトランティカ"? I don't know.

I still have less than 15 days soooo...

Anyway.

For some reason, I have cancelled the Monster Hunter Goa Magara 3ds XL wanted 

Because apparently 3ds consoles are soooo region locked, you can't even use games from other countries.

For example, you have a Japanese version 3ds xl, you cannot use US version 3ds game cards.

And the Goa Magara XL I wanted is only available in Japanese.

In fact, all the colors/bundles I wanted was only available in Japanese.

Namely..

MINT X WHITE

 MINT X WHITE (TOMODACHI BUNDLE)

PINK X WHITE (ONE PIECE CHOPPER PINK)

BLACK (MONSTER HUNTER 4 BUNDLE GOA MAGARA)

SO DAMN SAD T^T

It was fine for me, only that I am in the Philippines now and shipping game cards from Japan would be damn ton expensive.

Plus I KNOW I won't be able to connect on the internet using Japanese consoles here.

All my DS lite and DSi consoles (all are japanese versions) never worked on wifi connection here.

So damn annoying.

All the more, the best thing I wanted was just.. IMPOSSIBLE.

And it goes by the name of....

ANIMAL CROSSING BUNDLE 'POPTART'

// CREYS....

///CREYS AGAIN...

////CREYS SOME MORE.

It was obvious what I really wanted, like, come one.

Yes, it's available in the US version.

But then, I CAN NOT FIND ONE AT STORES ANYMORE.

And no, I do not buy from Online Stores EVER.

I hate online transactions from people I have never met in person.

I just don't feel comfortable.

Japanese Version? Come one, how to use Animal Crossing properly without wifi, huh?

SO PLEASE, READER.. IF YOU KNOW WHERE TO BUY AN ANIMAL CROSSING 3DS XL IN STORES IN MANILA PLEASE LET ME KNOW. 

GREAT REWARDS AWAIT LMAO ^O^

But, if within 15 days I still don't find one, I'll just probably get something that's available in shops.

This pink one is good for me if all else fails. I just want to play Animal Crossing New Leaf so badly.

By then, I could start my Pastel Mermaid Dream Wonderland and stock up on ferocious amounts of Mermaid Series stuff.

Because that is all I want to do right now so I know I'll be happy and contented with that. ♥

So, now you know what has been going around my head for the whole couple of months and I was really skeptical about posting this.

But since I can't think of anything besides this and school, I figured it was the only bloggable/more positive/not that boring stuff to blog about..

I was really lazy to blog about my birthday though~

I stated on my last post I as going to but nothing much really happened so I found it boring to write about.

Maybe next year on my 18th birthday, huh? ^^

Btw, sorry for the eye sore my new theme might have gave you 'cause it gave me one too lol lol

I hope some of you liked it anyway. I might add some few more things to it depending on my mood lol.

Going to fix my college stuff from tomorrow onwards, so I might not be able to blog as much as I initially planned to.

But yeah, thank you for reading up to here as always.

It really really makes me happy to see every each person's visit add up ^^

So yeah..

Here's some random selca time inspired by CL of 2ne1~ lol whut

And that, my friends, is probably it..

Ok bye now~ Until next time~ ♥

signed,