♥ Denziiee's Blog : Tragedy birthday

No, Not MY birthday. I am talking about this blog's birthday.

As you saw on my twitter I had a very rough day yesterday since 12 am to 11:59pm which included depressing insults, not being able to gain the trust of someone important, being haunted by past mistakes, being haunted by future disasters that can strongly happen and death of 3 members of the family in on day of the boy's leader.

Now that I think of it I made te blog yesterday trying to make myself busy so I can forget what was happenin around me and it worked very very very well.

Until, I was finished tweaking stuff for this blog and finished my first post. It all starts back up again when I opened twitter and see crying Leader-nim Leeteuk, in shock of what happened.

Leeteuk's father, and both his grandparents died in a car crash yesterday. I was so shocked I didn't know what I was going to do. I felt so sorry for teuk and his family. No one should feel the devastating grief of losing 3 of the most important people and relatives in your life in a single day.

Why does bad things happen to good people? Teuk isn't a very emotionally strong person. He cries for the simple things people do for him, and cries when he feels even a bit sad. It's so unfair. And to think it was on a time that he hasn't see n his family alot because he's serving the military. So unfair.

I can take a million dating issues than see leeteuk like this. The hardest part was I cannot do anything for him. Nothing but pray, pray that he will be strong, pray that people will comfort him, pray that it's going to be ok really soon, pray that the pain won't hurt too much. I am very worried. And it hurts to see members sufferring when we cannot do anything but wish them well. When we bowed and pledged to protect them. Why must this always happen?

I feel so useless and guilty and sad that they make me happy so so so much, but I cannot even make them feel even slightly better more importantly at times like this.

It has been so horrible and awful. But I guess you can never know life's joy's without knowing what sadness is, right? People who know sadness know how good happy times can taste. It makes life even more cherishable. 우리 인생을 너무 너무 소중하네요.

I'm glad I made this blog yesterday too you know. It let me know that there are equally wonderful things in life as there is bad things. Something so awful means there's something equally as great and powerful. So I choose to cherish good times while it lasts. Because we only have so much tomorrows and we can only breathe for so long.

...for now all I can do is pray. And hope that everything will be alright, not just for teuk, but also for me and everyone else.

It has been a good post, some of you may not relate or understand or find it boring or whatsoever, but to those who read up until the end here, thank you. :) I hope to share more of me with you even know it's nothing much. Have a good day while you can!